I rang my Mum this morning and heard that Son 2 had just arrived. Mum thought he would be coming back, and takes it in her stride. I do think that my ex ought to have the courtesy to ring my parents and give them some idea of the day and time, rather than just turning up. Anyhow, I’m looking forward to seeing both my sons later.
I’m a bit worried about my Dad. He sounded very subdued on the phone this morning. I don’t know what’s wrong. I expect Mum will enlighten me later. He seems to be either angry or down most of the time these days, but he says there’s nothing wrong with him, so what can we do?
In the post this morning I had an appointment letter for me to see the consultant psychiatrist on 12th January. I presume it’s in response to the letter I wrote complaining about the other psychiatrist’s letter to my doctor. Hopefully I’ll be able to thrash things out with her and get something sorted out as regards my medication, if nothing else.
I went into town this morning because I needed to go to the bank, and bought some more cat tins for my budgeting system. Also some of that Australian foot cream that’s advertised on television. I’ve tried it before and wasn’t overly impressed, but my chiropodist has recommended it to me since then, so I’ll give it another try. Apparently it’s the presence of urea in it that makes the difference. And yes, I do know where urea comes from, but in the cream it’s chemically synthesised.
I bought lunch from the chippy on my way home. I only do that about once a month. I like the idea of it – I mean, who can smell chips without feeling hungry? I never find it such an appetising meal once it’s in front of me though. I’ve been pottering around reorganising a few things since I got home, and I’ll be going out to meet Mum in a little while. I’m not sure what’s happening this evening now Son 2 is around, but I expect I’ll see the boys at some point.

I had a very relaxing evening yesterday, lying in bed watching television. One of the programmes was a repeat from last year. An advantage of not having such a good memory these days is that even though I know I’ve seen the programme before, I can’t remember ‘whodunnit’. I think I watched about four and a half hours of television, a murder mystery, a dramatised true murder story, and also a programme about forensics. Do you see a pattern emerging there?! I think the extra rest probably helped my back a bit.
I’ll be going shopping with Mum today (just for a change – lol)! Also Mum & Son 1 and my nephew will call in this evening, on their way to see the fireworks. Other than that I’m not sure what I’ll do. It’s raining but thank goodness the weather has warmed up. The cold was making me miserable. I don’t mind going out when it’s cold, but having a freezing cold flat isn’t much fun. I think the airing cupboard leak is drying up – just in time for when the landlord visits, as usual!
I’m feeling much the same as I have been over the last couple of days. Generally achey, and my upper back is particularly sore. Mentally I’m okish. A bit low, but that’s nothing new. The intrusive thoughts are going mad though. I can’t describe how rotten it is having to deal with them. I’m thinking about my first ‘rollercoaster’ post, which I’ll write over the next day or two. I’ve also found a brilliant photo of a rollercoaster, so eventually I’d like to use that for a blog design. I’m not feeling very creative right now though.

It’s raining, which means that it’s warmed up a bit – yay! The shopping trip went ok, well actually there were a few family frictions, shall I say? Anyway, the shopping is all bought, unloaded and put away. I toyed with the idea of going into town and looking at a few of the sales this afternoon, but decided to be sensible and stay in. Rain and cold don’t help arthritis and rheumatism much. I’m rather tempted to go and have a hot shower, then snuggle up in my freshly-made bed and watch television for a couple of hours. Son 1 will be down this evening so I need to conserve some energy! I wouldn’t say that things are a lot worse than usual healthwise, but it’s not one of my better weeks. Most of it is upper body related. Lifting my arms up to fold washing is (literally) a pain at the moment, and I still feel like I’ve been kicked between my shoulder blades. Oh well, what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger.