I’ve put my profile up on a few free personals sites. My write up was very easy-going, saying that although I would like to meet someone eventually for a long-term relationship, for now I am just looking for friendship, maybe leading to romance. This is a reply I got this evening. I’m not sure whether we’re talking green card, or whatever the UK equivalent is, or if he’s just trying to set up an online thing.  He also sent me his email addresses, messenger user names, and phone numbers.

Listen sweetheart, we not had a proper chat, I be on messenger round 9.30pm on wards, I got a webcam.
I want to ask, will you be my girlfriend, I am still married, waiting for my divorce, when I get full divorced, you can become my wife, we can live together and in the future and spend the rest of our life together, having cruises and nice holidays, I am planning to go some cruises and I want a woman who will love me and wants to be with me to enjoy life, being happy.
When I am divorced, would you become my wife, if you say yes, then we can be together, as item, I do mess about and have jokes, I act like a child, but least I have fun, I don’t mean any harm.
So will you become my wife, when I get divorced, in can be ages but I need to ask if you would.
Chat later.

I’ve been thinking about people, events etc., which have been important in 2005. I’m just looking back from a personal point of view, and sticking to the positive things.
1. Great support from my family, especially my parents.
2. The kindness of my Godmother and her daughters.
3. Spending time with my Godmother, her youngest daughter, and the baby girls.
4. Finding out who my friends really are, and how much they care.
5. Getting the china cabinet I’ve wanted for years.
6. My fortieth birthday.
7. Realising that I don’t need a man in my life, and I’m not totally sure that I want one.
8. Understanding that a few minutes of my time and an email to family or friends can work wonders.
9. Finally getting to the stage where the divorce etc. is behind me, and starting to move on.
10. Realising that my ‘little boys’ will soon be towering over me (and I’m 5′8”)!
11. Joining MIND, and also starting to join campaigns for other causes by emailing my MP.

“A New Year’s resolution is something that goes in one year and out the other.”

1. Be more tolerant and less bitchy.
2. Be more proactive in sorting out my health problems.
3. Walk more.
4. Eat more healthily (and use the cooker)!
5. Spent less time on the internet.
6. Read more, & keep a record of every book I read in 2006.
7. Keep my blog in one place for longer than a few weeks, & stop destroying everything I write.